California is still in the plans eventually

Tonight my mom mentioned abt going to ny for a visit.it reminded me that life is about generally for me taking chances and it was by chance that i ran away from tungland and i don’t regret once but i am glad that i did and i am very thankful my now ex velle has helped me with the help of some of his friends.i am grateful for all that they did.however this ex also moved on to another girl but at least he had the guts to tell me about it before finding out through someone else.most men don’t have that in them to tell the truth straight up.my second ex fiance certainly didn’t!But,i have finally set up an ebay selling account for books and i plan on using ebay to sell books with 10% of the income going to word of life each way by check(written by my parents)and eventually i hope to take a cooking class and eventually do acting even part time down in hawaii to help me get a job in california.if i do hunt for a man he must be local meaning on the island of oahu so my pup can approve or disapprove him.Her decision will be the final draw if I deal with a certain man or any man.I plan on taking her with me and continuing to take her to a VCA animal hospital in california.as for children right now it’s not in my interest but i will deal with children one way or another even if it’s sponsoring a child.regardless my plans are still up in the air for the time to move but hope to be out of hi before my parents get senile in their 80’s. i chose ca because it’s closer to my dad and i didn’t feel like it’s worth the pain of traveling from somewhere on the east coast to hi knowing if my dad only had 48 hours god forbid i might not make it back in time.that alone would be a burden on my heart forever.